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February 06 THIS BLOG IS MOVINGAs of Tuesday 6th February 2007, this blog will be moved over to Myspace. There's more flexibility with what I can do with my blog in myspace and plus it brings my profile and blog into the one. So it beats checking out both hi5 [which i use only for the profile] and this blog at different times.
Pictures will still be added onto this space and all blogs will stay here for preservation.
I would like to thank everyone who has enjoyed reading my ramblings on the baybix0xcc msn space...and hope that you will continue your support by checking out my new blog on Myspace.
Luv alwayz,
Mizi Liy4h [formerly baybix0xcc] January 24 Just over a month of hols left![[ mood :: just woke up... ]]
[[ song playing in my head atm :: never gonna let u down - frankie j ]]
HellLoOOOo to the world out there! it's been like a week or something since I last blogged and there wasn't even an actual blog. First of all, I gotta make a few msgs to a few ppl
Tiffie H - Hey gurl! Miss u so much! Sorry I haven't had time to email you back...I've just had a lot on my mind lately...we'll catch up when you come back =]
Nai-Tien - Happy 24th Bday for the 10th of this month...i've lost ur mob number and I totally forgot until just recently...hope it was a good one!
Ok I think that's it lol.
Let's see...a lot has happened actually..well i dunno, depends what you call alot. Actually maybe not, it probably just seems like a lot since I temporarily have no job until work calls me in again [next wk they said...let's see if they're true to their words]. Let's see, what's been happening...
- Me and Kitty hanging out aka Wii shopping [we were luckily able to get one at DJ's Garden City after someone at Big W said that QLD, NSW, ACT and some other place were sold out] and grocery shopping: This was the first time I've seen kitty since she got back from HK (which was two days before). It felt so good to see her again, it was even more great that I was able to hang out with her 1on1. I got to see her new house...and omgosh it's soo nice! I'm so envious!! We were in the car quite a bit actually..driving to and fro places. We still managed to get everything done in the end though. We even managed to scare the shit out of each other by telling each other ghost stories on that really dark scary road back to my house. I was scared shitless when I got home because no one was home yet. I went to the computer room to turn on the light and I forgot that it was almost dying...so it was fully blinking and the first thought that came to my mind was the scene from The Grudge where the scary chic comes out from the tv screen and onto the ground. I was fully freaking out. I was put at ease when Dave came over to make sure I wouldn't turn delirious! Thanks to my gurkie for the great catch up and also the transporation hehe...i'll pay u back when I get my own car [sometime this yr i hope].
- Kitty's Wii Night - This just happened the day after me and Kitty hung out. This was the night primarily for 3 things [i think anyway]. 1. To show everyone her lovely new house..aka house warming, 2. To play Wii~ 3. TO acknowledge to everyone that she is now in Brisbane hehe. I felt quite proud of myself of actually drving to her place with Dave, Tony and Chi in the car and got everyone there in one piece. That is like the farest I have driven so far so i was scared and paranoid that I was gonna do something wrong. It was pretty good night of hanging out, having a BBQ [cheers to Tony and Dave for being the chefs for the night], playing Wii/Mah Jong/Tekken/Cards/Poker/Yahtzee [thanks to GY for introducing me and Chi to it..it's a pretty funny game] and sleeping over. I unfortunately felt nauseous in the duration of the night but I got all better. Thanks to Dave and Kitty for nursing me when I felt sick [while everyone else just played their games downstairs...u uncaring ppl! jkjk!!! haha] , and also to Andy G who joined us 3 to check up/chat about the most random things while he was still being given a tour of Kitty's house. Me, Dave and Tony slept in the guest room, Jeann and Kitty slept in her room, both Angies and Chi stayed up til 8:30am [seriously won't be healthy for u lol], GY and Andy crashed in the upstairs living room. Me and Dave cleaned up Kitty's kitchen/living room area a bit and then we headed off to Dave's place to rest up and to do a few of his errands.
Well what do u know...it was only those 2 things...haha, well it seemed like a lot. I guess because I had a lot of things in my mind recently that it seems like alot has happened.
Well there's over a month of hols left to go until it's back to uni...so hopefully I'll be occupied with the following events.
- Me and Dave's 8 Months Anniversary
- Jeann's 19th Bday dinner
- Tiff's 20th bday celebration [dunno what's happening]
- Badminton and Bball @ UQ
- Quinton's 21st Bday celebration [u ass...who told u to live in Boondall! hahaha]
- CNY celebration - hosted by Angie S
- Val's day!
- Market Day
- Back to uni!
And between all this, I'm hoping that work will be re-commencing soon! Time will tell hey...
Well that's all from me..i know it was a boring blog...but at least u know i'm still alive =D.
Ciao for now all..
CC
January 17 go boredom and randomness![[ mood :: bored ]]
[[ no music ]]
This is something I stole from Angie S's blog...it's really funny to think of what u get...enjoy!
25 People You Know and 75 Things You Know About Them
Name 25 people you know, in random order, off the top of your head.
Don't look at the questions before you put the names down!!! 1. Dave
2. Angie S 3. Kitty
4. Chi 5. Angie T 6. Jeann 7. Mummy 8. Daddy 9. Frank 10. May 11. Tiff H
12. Tony 13. Jimmy 14. Andy G 15. Phuongey 16. Julie 17. Emily
18. Ben
19. Tiff Y 20. Claud
21. Quinton 22. Puff 23. Taiki 24. Glenn 25. Min-Hee
Now answer each question honestly and to the best of your ability. What's 23's favourite colour?: yikes...well i'm guessing either blue, red or green since he seems to wear those colours Who did 16 last go out with?: have no freakin idea lol Would you date 2?: hahaha...if pigs flew and i discovered i was a lesbo, who knows =p Would 9 & 3 hook up or have they ever?: HAHAHAHA...omg. One of my besties with my bro...hell NO! Does 13 have any piercings?: If he does, I don't wanna know. Do you have/have you had a crush on 5?: hahaha no...she's adorable...but i like to remain hetro thanks =] Rate 1 on a 1-10 scale of cuteness.: HAHAHA...i will say 8 when he's alone with me...[understandable] or else it's 2 to show he is a man =p Are 23 & 7 friends?: i wouldn't say...though 7 does call 23 'Chiko' hehehe. What suburb does 11 live in?: Kuraby! Have you stayed the night at 21's house?: Never been to his house...it's too far away! Damn u northsiders! Who is 18's best friend?: Ecckk....i really have no idea...but I suppose his wife could be one =] Do you know any secrets about 20?: sadly no...*sniff* haha jokes. Would 10 & 22 be a good couple?: Hahahaha...there's so many funny issues there... Is 17 openly gay/bi?: I'm pretty sure she's straight...she hasn't expressed any homosexual tendencies towards me. What religion does 15 have?: Catholic! What do you REALLY think of 19?: An absolute cutie pie! GOnna miss not having her in my Chinese classes. Would you trust 4 with a secret?: for sure...and i know she will give me an honest opinion as well. Do you know 25's parents?: don't even know her family... Do you think that 6 is hot?: oh yeah...so hot right now =p Do you have 8's phone number?: even if i didn't, i live with him. Describe how 12 dresses.: pretty dressed up most of the time, normally with a business shirt, belt, pointy shoes and pants or else he goes casual with a polo/t shirt, jeans and thongs. Describe 24 in three words.: tall, nice, shy Would you ever kiss 14?: oh deary...i don't have intimate relations with my clients [personal joke] Would 10 & 24 be a good couple?: definately no...they're wayyy too diff from each other. What is 3's favourite animal?: cats? lol *shrugs* How did you meet 15?: we went to pre-school together and after that, didn't see each other again til youth group in grade 4 and then we went to high school together. Would you visit 22 in the hospital?: certainly...why not? What would you do if 16 died?: i'd cry...and would have to find another beauty therapist =p What would you do if 7 had a baby?: well...i am one of her babies....hahaha. Do you think you'd be invited to a party held by 17?: i would hope so...we're like chinese buddies! haha Is 1 your best friend?: he's my lover, my best friend and above all things, my boyfriend Is 25 actually someone you know well?: not really...but we get along great in chinese...she has the best fashion i swear! Do you love 4?: Definately..but no in THAT kind of way... When was the last time you spoke to 8 in person?: tonight at dinner =p Have you had drinks with 13?: erm..well when I first met him...we were getting drinks and snacking.. There's been alotta times when we have drank at the same function...but not really together. Does 19 skateboard?: i'd be surprised if she could. Have you dated 21 before?: eecckk weirdness...no! When was the last time you called 20?: man..last time i called/sms'd her was like last yr...and it had to do with yum cha lol. Have you ever given 11 a hug?: I sure have..=] She gives one of the best hugs! Have you cried in front of 12?: nup...i've been close. Does 14 know how to draw?: not too sure...but he sure can do alotta of other things. Does 10 like children?: hahaha...i'd hope not! Is 6 over the age of 18?: she'll be 19 in 13 days =p Does 2 own a dog?: nup.. Do you know 16's best friend?: i knew who one of her ex-best friends used to be and boy do we love bitching abt her =p Name one attractive thing about 15.: she's an incredibly sweet gurl and she will stand firm to her beliefs. What is 18's middle name?: I believe it's Lindsay..well according to the roll it is =] Does 9 like your favourite band?: erm...I don't have a favourite band..but we do share similar tastes in music. Have you seen 23 in a swimsuit?: nup lol. Can 6 play an instrument?: i know she has a keyboard in her room haha. Do you think 13 and 7 should date?: eewwwwww....HELL NO!!!!!! Who is 20 going out with?: not too sure if she's still taken...if it's the same guy..i think it's darryl??? What would life be like if you had never met 5?: i'd have no "daughter" lol.. I can see her being like a lil sister and a great friend...i would have missed the chance to meet a lil cutie pie like her. Where was the last place you've gone with 16?: erm...well i go to her house to get my waxing done lol. Have you ever had a crush on 21?: oh gosh no....that's wrong on many levels... Has 25 been to your house?: nup...we haven't hung out apart from uni Have you seen 7's bedroom before?: teehee..yup...and well i live in the same house as her =p Does 18 live in another suburb than you?: indeed he does. Is 19 single?: i believe she is single...but knowing the guys after her...who knows? Has 1 ever borrowed money from you?: lol...nup... Have you ever met 14's grandma?: nup... Is 3 one of your exes?: nah, she's still my bitch =p Can 16 sing well?: What is 23's favourite movie?: please not hentai =p What country is 12 from?: He's an ABC i think...but he is Chinese How much older or younger than you is 24?: I think he's 3-4 years older? Do you think 5 is pretty/handsome?: very much so =] What was the last reason 2 went to the hospital?: ermm..well i know she went with me once to visit my dad... When was the last time you saw a movie with 20?: we've never seen a movie together before...but we have watched funny ass chinese videos in class lol. Has 8 tried sushi?: yup and he hates it lol. Does 11 smoke?: nah uh! Will 6 ever go out with 22?: well 6 is taken...so probably no =p What is 9 studying at uni/TAFE?: he's graduated already! He did B of IT @ QUT
What is 24's current job?: i know he works with some kitchenware company....
Does 4 have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nup...though there were some issues here and there...
Man that was hilarious to do....hope u all enjoyed it!
CC January 07 97 questions....thanks Jeann lol[[ mood :: bored....]]
[[ song playing on my wmp atm :: none...@ dave's place atm ]]
[[ special hollas go to :: My baby!! Welcome home! *muahs* ]]
Ok I'm officially bored...so i'm going to copy Jeann's blog entry and do my own personal 97 questions. Omg...what an odd number of questions...why not 100 to make it full up or like 95? Bleh...the odd aspects of life.
1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
*looks around body thinking which one to use* The double scar on my right shoulder - a certain asshole, whom i shall not name, cut me there with their jacket zipper. 2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS OF YOUR WALLS? Hahaha such stupid wording...erm...there's the AHS school photo and a puppy poster. 3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE? Small, sophisicated and it flips =] 4. WHAT MUSIC ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? None... 5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN? It's around 9:05am 6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW? Hrm...not too sure hey...I'm pretty with what I have right now...=] 7. WHAT DO YOU MISS? My music...*cries* 8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION Probably my Ipod Nano that Dave gave to me for my 6 months present.
9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SMELL? Hrm it really depends...on a guy (preferably Dave) David Beckham...on girls...it's a mixture...I'm into the Versace perfume..i forgot what it's called again..argh. 10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC? Nup... 11. DO YOU GET SCARED OF THE DARK? If I am driving alone in a quiet road I am. 12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY? Erm...a group of people... 13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE/PERFUME? Still loving my Ralph...and also my Glow. 14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX? Not too sure...each haircut suits different faces. 15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF GETTING PROPOSED AT? Not too sure...all I can imagine is a guy on one knee with a ring in his hand...not too sure what else could happen. 16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS? I'll probably go coffee...but i'm not too fond of either... 17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE PIZZA TOPPING? Super supreme...*yummy mushrooms* 18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Erm...hrm...i dunno..no food cravings...wouldn't mind Viet food lol. 19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD? Will not mention here. 20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE? mmMMmhmm =] 21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)? Friend wise...can't remember....boyfriend wise...a plush bear =] 22. DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY? I love SOMEBODY =p 23. ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED? Nup...that's just freaky... 24. FAVOURITE CLOTHING BRAND? nup...as long the style looks good on me, i'm all good. 28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON WAS LEAVING? You don't determine who you fall in love with...your life choices determine who you love....so if the one you love happens to leave...it was meant to happen for a good reason in the long term. 29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU? To be truthful and speak from the heart and not using stupid lines from movies. 30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED. 50 31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES? Brunettes =] 32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN? Dave 33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST? I have many pet hates...pretty hard to choose one. 34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF AUSTRALIA? Once.. 35. YOUR WEAKNESS? Sometimes not speaking up for my right fearing that it will stir up waves. 36. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO LIVE? In a nice apartment with a great view. 37. FIRST JOB? Bakery girl @ Sunnybank...lol SHAME 38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL? Erm....no... 39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY? Trying to write up an essay on a personal topic that has been on my mind for a while. 40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY, WHAT WOULD IT BE? Don't want plastic surgery...I rather accept myself with what I was born with. 41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY? Bored.... 42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST? Dunno....my organisational skills? *shrugs*...i don't get many compliments...and i prefer it that way. 43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL? Resort to candy as my way of getting high =] 44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY? Dunno hey...a car would be nice =p...apart from that..nah... 45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT? 3 max...it's easier when my partner and I want to buy a family car..no need for a tarago =p. 46. WHERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? Erm...my grandparents named me Cecilia after the saint. The second part of my viet name is my dad's name, all the siblings have it. 47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS? For the fun of it. 48. WHICH FINGER IS YOUR FAVOURITE? HAHAHAHA....that's a pretty random question. 49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? Yesterday... 50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? Hate it...go typing!! 51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE LUNCHMEAT? Chicken 52. ANY BAD HABITS? Yes...talking too fast...and getting paranoid when I shouldn't have to... 53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARASSING CD ON THE SHELF? Hahaha...Aaron Carter single "Crush On You" lol..SHAME!!! 54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? Depends what "i" considered in people to be friends. 55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL? Sadly a few times..but those were the days of the past... 56. DO LOOKS MATTER? It does benefit as a deciding factor when in twisted decisions. 57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER? Bitching...or breaking down.... 58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME? Dave's house lol. 59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY? Nup..not anymore. 60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE TOY AS A CHILD? In the days when I was still living in Sydney, I apparently had a plush pig called Milo. When I was 8, there was a plush turtle that I called Tina. 61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE? Around 130??? maybe more. 63. DO YOU USE SARCASM? LoL....i suck in using sarcasm. 64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT? Eh? No... 65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A PARTNER? Whatever I see in my bf...it's really hard to explain out in words... 66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? CC mainly...there are some random ones that come up. 67. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND? Mmhmm *smiles* 68. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? Nup.... 69. WHO IS YOUR CRUSH? I have no crush...I only have a love =] 70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVOURITE ICECREAM FLAVOUR? Go Mango and Boysenberry! 71. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU WENT ON A DATE? Tonight with my babe, we did part 1 of our belated anniversary celebration. 72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVOURITE COLOURS? Pink, blue and brown... 73. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE? I think they're all out.... 74. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS RIGHT NOW? No one...i have what I have atm.... 75. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? I hear guys talking and cars outside...lol 76. THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Dinner...leftovers..w00t 77. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My bro for like 5 seconds or else it's mum. 78. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX? face and hair. 79. FAVOURITE SONG? it changes...right now probably Paula DeAnda - Overloved. 80. FAVOURITE THING TO HATE. How can you have a favourite thing to hate.... 81. FAVOURITE DRINK? Taro Milk Tea w/ Jelly and Mango Smoothie...mmmm.. 82. FAVOURITE ZODIAC SIGN? Well I'm a leo..so i'll go by that. 83. FAVOURITE SPORT? Erm..badminton...bball is ok.... 84. YOUR HAIR COLOUR? Mainly black..but I have copper highlights (btw...Dave mentions it looks good and he gets hard looking at it =p) 85. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
Mmhmm 86. SIBLINGS? 2 older bros 87. FAVOURITE MONTH? July...=] 88. YOU LIKE SUSHI? Mmmmm..sushi..... 89. LAST THING YOU WATCHED? Happy Feet..it's so cute!! 90. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? Never really came up... 91. SUMMER OR WINTER? Winter....more reasons to cuddle hehe. 92. HUGS OR KISSES? hugs from friends and kisses from bf - agreed 93. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? Go relationships! 94. WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? No main book atm... 95. IS ANYONE IN LOVE WITH YOU? Erm...i would hope so.. Wtf..where's the last 2?? Weirdness...
Well that's it! cIAO ALL!
CC January 02 Time surely does fly by fast...[[ mood :: bored ]]
[[ song playin on my wmp atm :: overloved - paula deanda ]]
[[ updates :: sign my guest map! *link to it is in the "links to visit" box ]]
I was looking through the blogs of ppl on my MSN list..and I came along one of the blogs of a friend from highschool who I haven't seen in ages and oh my gosh! She's look so different! This year marks the third year since I graduated from highschool and DAMN...a lot of things surely do change. Especially with looks! This particular girl (no offense with what i am about to say) looks geeky with the glasses and everything...and I saw pics of her just then and i was like HOT DAMN! SHE'S SEXY NOW! hahaha. Damn...the stuff that she wears and how she does herself...holy crap it's crazy! Made me wonder how different everyone else looks too.
Attached to this blog are pics of the AHS girls in my current close friendship group now and back in 2004 when we were in high school. For those who dunno who they are...there's Chi, Angie, me and Kitty.
There's still some girls who I still keep in contact with...but I haven't got an updated photo of them..so I can't use them as examples for this blog. But I'm sure us 4 is already good enough.
Depending on how you view time...3 years can be a very short or a very long time. Regardless of how people see it, a lot can happen in 3 years. Both physically, emotionally and mentally. One major example that I can use is those who are important in our lives. Some people come and go as the years as go...whereas for others...the ones who once upon a time weren't as close...are now one of your best friends...or in some cases the ones who were always close to you, still are.
I've been able to experience all these case scenarios. Angie Seeto is a friend who I have known since grade 8...and since then have always been close to...apart from the bumpy times..she is one girl I know I can talk to. Chi Lam...I didn't start getting really really close to her til probably around year 11/12...yet I had known her for a long time before that....I can honestly say as well that out of all the AHS girls...this girl has changed the most physically. She has developed from the 'geeban' =p tomboy to a sophisicated young lady...and let's not forget all the guys after her *wink wink*. Kitty Chiu is a similar example of the previous as well. Individually I have shared a journey with them all, and I couldn't be any more thankful for having them still in my close friend circle. As for the ones who were close to me but not anymore...well...they aren't so important hehe. Nonetheless...for some of them, I still do keep in contact with them. For others, not as fortunate.
But despite all the changes that can happen in such a short period of time...we shouldn't fear that we will one day lose our friends, we should embrace the time that we have with the people we care about and go with the flow. It is better to experience a time of laughter and happiness with the ones you love as opposed to spending all that time trying to impress everyone in order to be their friend. This is something that I learnt a while ago...and even up to today, am still trying to perfect this lesson.
So it doesn't matter if you're a long term or short term or even spontaneous planner. Enjoy every little bit of the life you have now...because who knows? It may be gone sooner than you think....
Love CC
January 01 A fresh new start[[ mood :: content but tired ]]
[[ song playin on my wmp atm :: wanna be with you - paula deanda ]]
[[ special holla goes to :: EVERYONE! Happy new year ya'll!! ]]
WOW! What a great ending I had for the year 2006! The day started off my with FINAL EVER SHIFT at K-mart! Yes I have FINALLY left K-Mart and man it feels good! Kinda sad that I won't be able to see some of great people that I worked with throughout the 2.5 years, but at the same time...happy knowing that my 'calling' to leave had finally come around. One of my favourite checkout operators Kimmie gave me a Ferro Rocher (can't spell) bell chocolates as my farewell gift. It was so sweet. The shift overall was pretty decent, didn't have any fully grudgy customers. The shift ends with giving endless hugs to everyone who I have known ever since I start. And then I walk out of the store...for the last time as a staff member of K-Mart Mt Ommaney 1047.
Afterwards headed up to the city where I headed to Dave's place and to prepare for the first ever girls night in celebration with Angie Seeto, Angie To, Jeann, May and Chi! Now most of u are probably thinking we're crazy for spending New Years indoors. But Dave's place had a pretty good view of the fireworks...just not the low ones..but we were able to see the majority of them. Everyone took part in the meal process of being assigned to make/buy a certain part of the meal and we all just sat around eating. Props to everyone for the kickass meal. Here's our menu
Entree :: BBQ Pork Pastry + Another yum cha dish (not sure what it is) - Provided by Angie Seeto
Main Meal :: Rice Paper Rolls *with beef* - Made by Chi with the help of me and Angie To hehehe
Side Dishes :: Garden Salad w/ Italian Dressing and Potato Mash
Dessert :: Cookies and Cream Cheesecake - Made by me!
Snacks :: Fads (aka fags lol), Real McCoy chips, Bono (which were never eaten), Sour strips - Provided by May + popcorn (by me! hehe)
Drinks :: Soft drinks + Juice - Provided by Angie To
So after we all took part in cleaning up after dinner, we all couched around the living room on the couches and mattress and watched Honey while munching away. Best highlight, in the part when BB is waiting for HOney to come, Chi goes "oh the black guy is angry!"!!! It was so random that u just had to laugh. And also after the movie when we all tried to learn the dance routine haha. We all failed miserably (plus I kicked a chair twice! lol) but we all had great fun. I think it was then that the 9pm fireworks started and we saw the awesome fireworks from the balcony! Afterwards we played mah jong/poker/13 until 11:50 when we got sparklers and twirled them around on the balcony. It was so cool. Pity I don't have any pics of that moment. Then we did the countdown according to the TV, but when we got to 4, the fireworks already started! LOL It was so weird. But it was great all the same. We all just lazed around afterwards and talking about our new yr resolutions and started playing Truth until we had to walk Jeann to the bus stop and then we went back and continue until around 5-7ish in the morning. Oh with the additional of GY this time lol.
I was the first to wake up at around 12pm....and everyone else slowly started to wake up lol. We had the leftovers and cleaned up and headed off home.
It was a great way to end 2006 and to start the new year! As for my resolutions? They're nice and simple and here they are:
- Get no 4's overall at uni
- Try to save $100 in my bank each month
- To spend more time hanging out/getting to know my girls
- To learn to understand all sides of every story before I make a judgement
- To exercise at least twice a week
Seems easy..but we'll see if I can achieve them...hehe
Photos are up as well!
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!
LOVE CC! December 27 A reflection on goals...[[ mood :: loving the rain.. ]]
[[ song playing on my wmp atm :: my lovin goes - christina millian ]]
[[ special hollas to.. :: Dave! Happy 7 months babe! *mwahs* ]]
Welll it has come to that time of year when I need to reflect on my actions throughout the year to determine if I have achieved any of my New Year Resolutions or my July - December goals!...Let's start with the latter...
JULY - DECEMBER GOALS - RESULTS~
- Goal no. 1 - Hang out with my group of friends at least twice :: COMPLETED
In this time of age where the generation X'ers aka Nexters are all busy with uni and for some...lovers....we mustn't forget the fundamentals of friendship in each and everyone's lives. For a female nexter especially, we all need our girl friends to rely on when we need to talk about things that we just can't share with anyone else in the whole entire world! So thanks for to all my friends for making the time and effort to still get together and hang out =]
- Goal no. 2 - Have a girls night out at least 4 times :: FAILED
Well I missed out on the first Girls night because I was sick, I went to the second girls night (which I had to organise because i didn't make the first one) and after that...we nothing happened haha. Nonetheless I have had times where I have hung out with just my girls...so not too sure if I can count that =p Needless to say...i'm sure us girls will think of something else better next year.
- Goal no. 3 - Go clubbing at least 5 times :: FAILED
Oh man what a devestation hahaha. Then again...I've always had work on the weekends and it's kinda put me off from clubbing. I mean, it restricits how much time you can be out at the clubs and all. I also backed out on a few times because well...either I didn't feel like it or just simply did not want to go anymore...probably because no one else was going haha. I wanna club more next year though...hopefully when I get my car I will be out more..not just in the dubs but more sociable too =]
- Goal no. 4 - Get a GPA of 5.75 :: FAILED
Hahaha...in the semester I got a GPA of 5.4....and overall it's 5.33 (which has gone up from 5.25). Considering that I did 5 subjects this semester, I'm quite proud of this achievement! *pats myself on the back* Right now i'm thinkin if I should keep up with doing 5 subjects...It would make me finish a semester earlier....or if I wanted to, do summer as well and I would finish a year earlier! Hrmmm...decisions decisions...
- Goal no. 5 - Exercise twice a week :: On and off...
Haha...there were times when I would work out with Dave and all...but then something like my re-ocurring back injury would come up or some other part of my body seems to play up *sigh*. I guess from then I stopped...but I do want to work out. I spoke to Angie a while ago and we're thinking of doing a weekly UQ girls sport session. That is..probably all the UQ girls in my group get together during our break/after uni and play badminton or something. At least it gurantees that we're keeping healthy. I might add gym with Dave as well...so we'll see what happens..I'll make sure I mention this in my 07 resolutions haha.
- Goal no. 6 - Get no 4's overall this semester :: COMPLETED
W00t!!!! It's the first time I haven't got a 4 in any subject overall! Yeaaa I feel so proud of myself! I just hope I can keep this up..
- Goal no. 7 - Have 700+ savings in my bank :: HAHAHAHA....no
Man..what a failure I am lolz...atm I probably have like 200?? I really need to stop spending so much...and save a bit..
- Goal no. 8 - Have a firmer stomach :: Bleh..
One word :: motivation. LoL..
Man...I have failed terribly for July - December goals...so let's see how I go with my 06 resolutions haha. I can't even remember what they are (I've added a jpeg version of it!).
RESULTS OF 2006 NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS
- Study wise -
* Get into a Business Degree (preferably at UQ) :: SUCCESS!
Not only did I get into Business Management at UQ...but i ALSO managed to do a double degree of Business Mangement and Arts!! w00t!!! Love it!
* Get a GPA higher than 5 :: SUCCESS!
Like I said..it feels good...hehe
* Be organised :: Erm..
Maybe I should've been more specific about this...in terms of assessments not really....
- Financially wise -
* Always have 100+ in my account :: FAILED
Enough said...
* Stop depending on plastic too much :: SUCESS
Well that is..I've stopped using my credit card. My savings is on and off...
* Earn 100+ a week :: This was true for most of the time...
Apart from the times when I felt lazy...this has been true...
- Health Wise -
* Go to gym once a week :: FAILED
I did go once a week in semester one..but then...*someone came along* haha =p. No babe I'm not blaming you for it. I do need to start working out again..so maybe I might think of a cheaper, efficient way to exercise =]
* Take dancing lessons :: FAILED
Man..I so wanted to learn Hip hop...maybe next year...again...lol
* Reduce fatty intake to twice a week :: SOMETIMES
There are times when it would only be once a week...sometimes 3 times...so I guess it kinda cancels out...maybe? haha
* Drink alcohol on special occasions :: SUCCESS
I don't recall a time when I have drank alcohol just for the sake for it. I don't even drink that much hahaha. But yeh..the times when I have drank alco....they were special =]
* Tone up all areas oy body :: FAILED
*looks at flab...* =[
- Lifestyle Wise -
* Go clubbing more often :: FAILED
Haha shame...I went clubbing less than 10 times this year omg...hahaha.
* Get my Ps :: SUCCESS
YAy!!!! About damn time too! haha
* Balance out aspects of life :: PENDING
I guess not if I have had breakdowns throughout the year over lacking some things...
* Find some 'me' time for at least 3 hrs a week :: Not sure...
This year..I've just been flat out with uni...working...family commitments...hanging with friends when I could. Later on there was Dave and another job. Hrm..I dunno hey...I know some of u think 3 hrs is heaps of time...but not really for me. I guess recently I have been getting like a entire day to myself because well I'm just hermitting...but throughout the entire year..not too sure...
* Keep in touch with my Nursing friends :: SUCCESS
I've kept in touch with Suong, Simon, Amy and Lisa. Everyone else I guess I wasn't really close enough to. Hanging out wise, I caught up with Amy and Lisa...after a major transport saga hahahaha. Simon and maybe Suong, we gotta have sushi some time!
* Keep in touch with the AHS friends who I have managed to keep in touch with since last year :: SUCCESS
Well for most of them it's true...add on a few more girls and minus some. To date I still talk to (on an occasional basis/sometime basis) Angie, Chi, Kitty, Phuongey, Cat Thompson, Ashanti, Anna B. I'm pretty proud of that =]
* Go to Melbourne :: FAILED...again
Haha...damn...this sucks lol. I MIGHT be going early next year so we'll see how we go.
* Make more friends :: SUCCESS
I think every year, we all seem to make new friends and don't actually realise it until you reflect on the year. Like it's hard to think that I just made some friends this year when it seems like I've been friends with them for ages! And I can't forget that if it wasn't for making friends...I wouldn't have met Dave (or vice versa...since he was the one who approached me lol).
Wow so many failed ones hahaha...Okies..I'm gonna do my Jan - June goals now...let's hope I can do better than this semester haha..
Ciao for now!!
Luv CC
p.s. this took 45 minutes to write haha.
December 24 Season Greetings~[[ mood :: tired... ]]
[[ song playing on my wmp atm :: we're a miracle - christina aguilera ]]
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ONE AND ALL!!
May the spirit of Christmas be in each and everyone of u...=]
Luv Always,
CC [miziliy4h] December 21 Xmas is getting closer...[[ mood :: neutral... ]]
[[ song playing on my winamp atm :: breaking free - high school musical (yea...shut up! it's a good song! =]) ]]
[[ special hollas go to :: My babe Dave and Tony...who leave for Taiwan this Sat....gonna miss u so much babe...oh yeah..u2 Tony =p hehe. Also to my gurkie Kitty who leaves for Hong Kong on Sunday...u have a safe trip hun...we'll hang out when u come back =] ]]
Well can you all believe it? Christmas is in 4 days and for some reason...it doesn't really feel like it to me. Maybe because my friends and I celebrated our Xmas last Sat at our Xmas Costume Party! I gotta say it was a pretty cool night. Some ppl slacked on their costumes though..but oh well =p that's just my opinion hehe. We had a Xmas tree (which I got at a good bargain for and it looks awesome for that price), Xmas Bonbons, Snacks, Xmas Chicken, Pizza, Antipasto, a very yummy Xmas Mud Cake (props to Kitty for bringing that! mmmmmmm) and a good night of entertainment of being together. Oh yeah..and who could forget the Secret Santa. Here's what everyone came as and who their secret santa was.
Me :: Jellyfish fairy - May.
Dave :: Horny Priest (with the sacred 'bible' consisting of a Flask and Showgirls ads hahaahah! classic!) that was pretty awesome - Tony
Tony :: SANTA CLAUSE...He looked adorable hehe - Angie S
Kitty :: One Sexy Black cat meoooww - Chi
Angie :: Army Gurl - Kitty
Jeann :: Lara Croft - Dave
May :: Emo! hahaha - Angie T
Angie T :: Sailor Gurl - Me!
GW :: Riceman! It was a good last minute idea - Jeann
Chi :: Devil (not really..just the headband hehe...it's all good) - GW
For some peeps, they left at around 11:30...everyone else stayed at Dave's place..playing Wii til like 5 in the morning...except for me and Dave who slept at like around 2:30ish - 3 coz we were so dead from planning and working and everything. Our last guests didn't leave til 5pm the next day haha...it was all good. Thanks to everyone who came...u made the party happen!
So ever since then...it feels like that Xmas is already over. It's like my xmas spirit is slowly fading. But there's still my family xmas. All their presents have been bought and we will have our dinner sometime soon. But then there's my biggest fear after Xmas. BOXING DAY..
That is...working on Boxing day. I swear..this is the low point of working as a Service Desk Assistant at KMart...or ANYWHERE...you will get the bitchiest customers on that day and I'm praying to God that I'm not working all day. Or else I will seriously die...
What's gonna make things harder is that Dave leaves this Sat *cries*. Whyyyyyyyy??????? Well I guess he can spend time with his family and I spend time with my family and friends...hopefully time will fly by...and remember our deal....no gurls or gay anal sex =]
Ohh...another reason why I hope for time fly by is for 2 reasons!
On the 31st...IT'S MY FINAL DAY AT K-MART! YES PEEPS I HAVE MADE IT OFFICIAL!! The letter of resignation is coming in on Saturday! After saying so many times that I'm gonna quit...I'm finally doing it! I'm just so fed up with Kmart...and plus there's BPA waiting for me (i hope hahaha).
Also...it's NYE! And the gurls are planning a gurlie night in! It's a difference from the typical dinner out at Southbank. I mean fireworks is something u can see all the time..why not do anything different =]. Also...it will be good to reflect on the year and learn what and what not to do next year!
I will blog later on my reflection on my New Year's resolutions and My July - December goals...but right now..I need to help do chores and prepare for tonight's family bbq! mmmmm...
Ciao for now all!! And if I forget..MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!
CC
December 13 The life of the slack blogger[[ mood :: just woke up....and can't get back to sleep
 ]][[ song playing on my wmp atm :: going crazy - natalie ]]
[[ special hollas go to :: Kitty who turned 19 on the 3rd *mwahz*...this is the first time I blogged since ur bday...lol..hope ur bday was a smash, Jimmy who graduated on the the 6th - congrats dude! Remember to shout us all drinks with ur salary money eh eh =p ]]
Omg...it's been like two weeks since I last blogged! This is crazy. I normally blog lke 3-4 times a week. Noooo! I'm becoming a slack blogger.....but i guess that just means I've been pretty damn busy this past 2 weeks. I'm rarely on MSN and mainly out, so I guess that's the case =p. Sorry for all those who normally just keep in contact with me thru MSN, feel free to email me or sms me =]
Well let's see what been happening that made me Blog Deprived.
- Kitty's 19th bday celebration @ Fridays
Although all the girls exp me and kitty left before 12...it was a pretty ok night. We spent the b4 12 time just chatting, catching up, danced a bit, had a few drinks and doing the things that friends do =] I think Kitty arrived at like 11:30ish or so...pity the girls couldn't stay any longer. Would've been awesome to have the crew together again...eventhough Tiff is in Filo [*sniff* missing u gurl!] I left at around 12:15ish or so..had to work the next day, and I was already exhausted from working previously. Highlights from the night include: Dave drinking Absinthe [can't spell it] and Guess what? HE WAS STILL NORMAL!...even after having a few other drinks...craziiiii!!! Those black friends of urs trained u good =p, the stupid azn Bodyguard at the front..he's so damn up himself and has an attitude problem grrr. No offense or anything..but I don't Fridays is the best place to go for clubbing dancing wise. If you wanna hang...it's got a great atmosphere..but the music...bleh...on and off. That's my opinion anyway.
- Working full on..
God..i dunno how many hours I have worked the past few weeks...it's just been crazi...but then again..i've always been leaving early and all hahaha. I dunno hey...i jus know that having 2 jobs is totally crap. U feel so exhausted after working 3 days at one job and having to work one shift the next day. U just feel so unmotivated as well. Argh..
- BBQ @ Roma St Parklands
This was HEAPS better than anticipated. It was so much fun. Not many of us went [ Jeann, Romeo, Angie, Me, Dave, Chi, Tim, Helen, Chris + Jeann's bro and 2 of his friends ], but man...the stuff we did was so funny. Apart from the typical process of adding sausages to bread and sauce and onions, and snacks...there was also PSP battles on the Drum game [mainly CHi and Angie lol]...then all of us played Monkey (it's like Piggy in the Middle, but we're in a circle), followed by Touch Footy. Haha it was totally awesome. So many laughs over the littlest things..it's like the good old times...man i miss those days =]. Highlights include: The creation of the 'Jellyfish' crew comprising of me, Chi, Angie and Jeann lol, the spur of the moment races between Dave and Tim [Tim won by heaps...] and Me and Chi [ we tied lol ], the basketball getting stuck on the roof of the cover and the boys trying to use water bottles to push it over lol..cheers to Romeo for his 'pro water bottle throwing skills', us taking 30min before we all "cruised off". Haha.
- Me and Dave's 200 days *mwahz*
For all those who thought we had something totally romantic in mind..U THOUGHT WRONG muahahaha!!! Nah...we did something nice and simple. It was just a day of relaxing and doing errands together. It felt so good just to do that. Who ever thought 'nice and simple' wouldn't be the best way to go? =]
Despite all this, I managed to get a haircut (nice trim...more layered too..love it =]), download 4 albums (Ciara, Natalie, Cassie, Paula DeAnda), finish off reading 'Memoirs of a Geisha', do housework and on some days, get my 8 hours of sleep =]
Now in case I don't blog heaps....here's the events that I will be attending that will make me blog deprived again..
- Xmas shopping
- Russel Peters
- Xmas Costume Party with friends
- Dreamworld
- Xmas Party with BPA
- V late night shopping (TBA)
- Working hardcore at Kmart (on break from BPA now)
- Spending time with Dave before he leaves for Taiwan *cries*
Well there u go...that's my life up to date. Until next time...take care one and all..I will make sure I blog before Xmas =]
CC
November 30 Hello World =][[ mood :: tired ]]
[[ song playing on my wmp atm :: do me like that - mis-teeq ]]
Well it seems like it's been ages since I've last blogged...so perhaps i should let everyone know where I have been haha.
Let's see...the last time I blogged was around the 18th or so...man that was ages away. Well like in my previous blog...i have experienced a rollercoaster of emotions....so here's me spilling out the major events
27/11 - Me and Dave's 6 months anniversary -
If I had to summarise the day in 3 words it would be the following: sweet, simple, random! The day started off with me seeing him at the city, meeting him half way between his house and Queen St, and he was carrying 3 roses for me. One for 6 months, one for 5 months and one for 4 months! After a few household duties, we headed to Hilton and had a nice little lunch there. Omg the chips there are so nice and very much worth the price! I highly recommend it! The dining area is very corporate like...very classy =]
The day was followed by heading to Garden City and watching 'Borat' in Gold Class. As much I loved being in Gold Class, I didn't think that Borat earned the privledge of being watched in Gold Class. ALthough people reckon that Borat is totally hilarious....I just thought it was kinda stupid. It really depends on one's level of humour. If you have 'low brow' humour, I reckon you'd enjoy it. If not, then perhaps it's worth a pass.
We then headed back to the city to his place and just played Xbox and ate Pizza to finish off the night. We were both exhausted from the events of the previous week, so it felt good to just relax and take it easy =] It just proves that even the simple things can make anyone happy.
28/11 - Dave's Surprise Bday Party - *hugs* Happy Belated Bday wishes goes to my babe! *mwahz*
Haha..it was a month long process of organising..but it paid off well =] Managed to get a group comprising of some of my girls, Dave's close friends and his house mates to help me organise a little dinner party at Dave's place while he was still at work! I'm surprised that despite all the suss hints, I still managed to surprise him haha. It was a great night...much thanks to everyone who helped out in helping me organise the party. Pics at up on Dave's Blog Site.
Well there's my major events...and now it's time for my major emotions!
- Depression -
I suffered depression for just under a week a while ago....there was a mixture of events and feelings that came around me...and it was too much to handle. It consisted of quite a few of the feelings that I mentioned in my previous blog. I didn't do anything stupid to get rid of my depression...but it did give me a chance to look at myself and see where I can change my leaf =] For those who are concerned, I am doing just fine atm...so no need to for any comforting phone calls.
- Happiness -
A feeling that's hard to come long and leaves easily.
- Stress -
Although it's holidays atm...i still managed to stress about alot of things. Also the past weekend at work was incredibly crazy...so it was very hard to maintain my cool. There was alot of things to think about and organise...i really need a chill out day at home sometime soon....
- Anger -
This was caused by numerous events and numerous people...i won't go into detail...but let's just say it's changed alot about me...whether it's for the better or worst...time will tell..
Ok..i'm now bored and i'm gonna end my blog here...ciao!
CC
November 18 Holidays =][[ mood :: trying to relax ]]
[[ song playing on my WM atm :: The One - Jennifer Lopez ]]
Well I have finally reached the time of year that I thought I would never be able to reach....THE START OF UNI HOLIDAYS! Man..it sure does feel damn good. But then again...I've spent most of my holidays working so far...with exceptions to yesterday. Played BBall for the first time in like 2 years yesterday at UQ with Dave, Jimmy, Kevin, Angie S, Shumin, May, Tiff, Angie T and also a random guy Henry, who is apparently a pro bball player. It was a kickass time...but damn I'm so unfit these days haha.
We played for a good 1.5 hrs with breaks in between. After that, most of us headed to Dave's palce to have a feastive lunch (for no apparent occasion) and us gurls played Monkey Mania and Eye Toy 3. Man...and we thought BBall was a workout...playing Eye Toy was much more of a workout. Nonetheless...I managed to look 0.4kg from yesterday alone lol.
There seems to be so many events coming up soon...and although there's like 3.5 months of holidays...it seems as though there isn't enough time to do everything that I want to do. I wanna work hardcore and earn some serious money, I wanna go out with my friends and hold parties and everything. Man...hopefully I'll be able to organise my time well and get to do everything I want.
Hrm..i've been trying to think about how I've been feeling nowadays...and it's always varied. I mean...in the past month or so, I've must have experienced a whole range of feelings...and maybe it's because of stress and exams and pms and everything else...or who knows? Well since there's nothing else to blog about atm, here's the range of emotions I've experienced now a days..
The 'insignificant' bug phase: I felt this for quite a while actually. Have you ever had a feeling where you feel as though no one gives a shit about you and doesn't acknowledge you? The feeling that no matter how much you yell out to let people acknowledge you, they still ignore you? Or even when you do a heap of effort and no one seems to appreciate it? It's that point where you feel as though you could get squashed at any possible moment. Effects of this phase will include depression, moodiness, binge eating and lack of motivation to do anything.
The 'confused' phase: Pretty straightforward really. But for those who have no idea what it means...it's at the point where your mind is all fogged up with a range of thoughts, sometimes irrational and you don't know which pathway to follow to find the light. Effects of this phase include ignoring those you care about, an urge to have time alone quite often and the lack of willing to express how you feel towards the one you care about the most.
The 'whacko' phase: Can also be known as the hyper phase too. Pretty much, you are happy and don't give a crap about anything in the worth. Normally occurs when you see friends you haven't seen in ages...or you feel a sudden rush of hyperactiveness in your body. Effects include sore cheeks from smiling, being extremely charismatic, fast talking and not thinkin negatively about life.
The 'stressed' phase: Easily said...exam period.
The 'procrastinating' phase: Here you try to do ANYTHING apart from studying for exams or something that is productive towards your career lol. Effects including playing games, being on MSN excessively, watching TV, improving new recipes, reading, listening to music and going out.
The 'nerd' phase: You will feel the need to study, normally because you exam is a few hours away or the next day. Effects include snobbing friends to make sure you can study, turning off your phone, appearing offline in MSN, not using the computer at all, starving yourself and being sleep deprived. This phase is usually neutralised by the 'whacko' phase.
The 'pissed off' phase: This is when even the smallest things push your buttons and you feel as though you want to punch the wall. Even things that wouldn't normally piss you off, do. Effects include the urge to scream and cry at the same time.
The 'brain dead' phase: You usually feel really drained out and all you want to do is take a shower and sleep. Regardless of how much work you need to get done before your next exam.
Hrm...i can't seem to think of anymore phases..i'm sure there is..but i'm too braindead atm. I think i will end it here for now...Stay tuned for future events of my uni holidays =]
Ciao for now..and enjoy your holidays everyone!
CC
November 11 Do we...Do we ever know...
- If we are going too far with a joke?
- If our life will remain stable once it's reach a 'perfect balance'?
- If 'Sorry' is enough to heal the pain of someone u care about?
- If what is trying to say, really is what they're trying to imply?
Rarely...sometimes...never without a fight.
I'll try to be optimistic and end with this note
'Mistakes are the dues we pay to live a full life'.
A SPECIAL dedication![[ mood :: recovering from tummy ache ]]
[[ no songs playing in my WMP atm ]]
Ok this is for my baby girl Julie!
Haha..shit..i can't believe I totally forgot abotu you! You were like the first girl I spoke to about my issues...but then again..maybe cause I couldn't make the connection between talking about brazillians to my life.
I haven't got much of a history with this gurl. We meet through a family friend..who was her cousin...and then we later found out that she lived up the road from me hahaha.
We didnt' talk for like 10 years or something because she moved away...but she got my name again in hi5 and i was like WHOA! haha.
We started talking again...and she's been a great help for me whenever i needed her. Well..whenever we talk.
She's still a cheery and bitchy girl that I remembered her to be =p Not the bitchy part..but bitchy in a good way.
We don't talk much..but when we do...she's always willing to make me laugh, pay me out..or even give me a good heart to heart thought on things.
Thanks for always being there my dear...you're a great beauty therapist and friend =]
Psstt! U wanna get cheap and good quality beauty services? Julie is the girl to go to! =] November 08 The sun has come out...[[ mood :: better than before =] ]]
[[ song playing on my WMP atm :: complicated - nivea ]]
Well...the saying that one must go through a storm to see the sun come out really is true. You learn to cherish the sun so much more after the rain. You see things in a totally different essence...for the better.
Maybe it's just the fact that my PMS has finished....(dunno if it has) or perhaps it's the fact that Dave and I managed to make a big breakthrough in our relationship (well mainly me) yesterday that made me feel so much more happier...lighter...and above all, in love...
A person who goes through life without facing any kind of pain, hasn't experienced the full rollercoaster of what life has to offer. That you fall down to learn to pick yourself back up again....or to know who will be there for you regardless of what happens...
Can I mention here...that I'd like to thank the following people..in order of who I spoke to.
Angie Seeto :: gurl...you were my first encouter about my isssues last night. Our long and deep chat on Tuesday night was enough to make me consider things thoroughly and not make any harsh decisions. You were the starting journey of making me set my mind straight and I can't thank you enough for that.
Angel Wu :: we might not be close, but for some reason, yesterday morning, I felt that I could turn to you with my problems. You claim that you have no experience in the 'relationship' aspect of life. Regardless of that, you gave me advice that is so meaningful, strong, thought-provoking and most of all, unique. We only had a brief chat...but I can't thank you enough for your words of advice. You were able to bring me a step closer to making my final decision. Thank you.
Jeann Wong :: because we were feeling similar emotions like I was, it felt good to know that I could relate to yesterday. We spent most of yesterday, bitching, discussing and supporting each other with our issues. We both managed to have a good outcome with our issues and for that, I'm grateful. Thank you so much for being there for me from the start of the morning until the point where things got sorted on my own. You were my shining star yesterday.
Kitty Chiu :: we only had a brief chat yesterday, but that fact that I was able to at least talk to you about what happened and you reminding a very important message was enough to keep me going. Although the planned phone call didn't occur due to a good outcome, I thank you for your support and being there for me. It just proves that our friendship is still strong despite not being able to communicate much due to other issues.
*Huggles and roses to all of you!*
and last..but not least.
Dave Wu :: Baby...if it wasn't for you, things wouldn't have been resolved. The level of patience and understanding that you had when I was expressing how I felt and releasing 5 months of bottled in negative emotions was substantial. Even after going through a rough patch, you still managed to come see me with done up hair, a smile, a comforting hug and many front piggy backs. To be able to reach another level of understanding has only developed more feelings for you...and making me miss you more when im' away from you. Thank you for understanding and will to work on things...it shows that you do care...*mwahs*
Lessons learnt ::
* Never be afriad to open up...keeping things inside will just make things worse in the long term.
* No matter how alone you feel...your good friends will always be there to support you when you need it
* Telling someone of their bad characteristics is a good way to let them see how they can change themselves for the better
November 07 To the one i love...[[ mood :: depressed... ]]
[[ song playing on my WMP atm :: promise me you'll try - jennifer lopez ]]
These past few weeks have been tough...but things didn't really seem to take its toll until last night. It all started over a small outburst...and it lead to feelings of uncertainty...my heart is bruised and being tormented with thoughts that i wished never to ever think about ever again in my lifetime...
We seem to be so different and possess contradicting values in various aspects of life. We have such different personalities now. Last night after i stopped talking to you, I lay in bed and thought about so many things. Why are we so diffierent from when we were when we first got together? We seemed to be so similar back then. I guess it's the curse of first impressions...they never last. Like in any relationship...everyone tries to show their best points at the start in order to assure the other person that they possess good values and they are for real. Sadly enough though...as the months go by, those in the relationship will start to loosen up bit by bit, trying not to make such a big diference in their attitudes and hence changing their's partner's perception of them. Although I can still see your good points...i've also started to notice some bad points in you...me....us....
I know you want to work on it and so do i, but the question is...are we both willing to change ourselves in order to make this relationship work...? Are we just two north pole magnets that are trying to connect but there's a force pushing us away all the time? We are both stubborn and like to stand firm on what we believe in. None of us won't to budge. It's usually you who takes a step back..but sometimes taking a step back doesn't work. We always end up at where we were...perhaps i should try taking a step back for once...just to see what may happen.
I know you want the best for me...and i know you truly care for me. I want the best for you....but I wonder if what I can give you is what you want.. If it isn't..you have to let me go and find the one who will love you the way you want...if it is...we have to start evaluating what we can do to make us become how we once used to be...
I'm scared to talk to u about our negative points...because i know it will create clashes...but like i always tell people...sometimes we have to go through the storm to see the sunshine again...i want to understand you again..and i want you to understand me. I need to become strong...and handle this...because i know you will be the same...
Someone reminded me that communication is the key to a successful relationship....but what they also forgot was that honesty was a fundamental in a relationship. And with honesty is the truth...and like we know...the truth can hurt sometimes...
I don't want us to be this way anymore....i want us to be happy permanently...not be happy for a few seconds and then feel like crap afterwards...I don't want to feel the pain when i try to say the L word but it doesn't come out...I don't want to feel this way...nor do i want to lose someone who means so much to me...not now...now ever...
Maybe it's time to go back to step one and work our way up again...
Why is it...[[ mood :: confused...hurt... ]]
[[ song playing on my WMP atm :: bad habits - destiny's child ]]
WHY IS IT...
- That love can be the greatest thing and the most painful thing anyone can experience?
- That some people can't tolerate and understand the good gestures that others try to do for them...
- That some things don't turn out the way it should be...
- That females have to suffer more physical and emotional pain than males... (females get like pregnancy, PMS, period...males get morning glories and that's like a good thing for them)
- That we seem to want to learn the mishaps of life on our own as opposed to be guided by others..
- That when we're upset...we don't want to talk to the one we care most about..
- That some don't see the whole essence of forgiveness and compassion and 2nd chances...
- That we turn to music to help us soothe and reflect on how we're feeling...regardless of happy..bouncy or sad...
- That it's so hard to tell someone about a bad characteristic eventhough if you know it will help improve them for the better...
- That gloomy days make ppl upset..
- That walks on the beach and roses always touch the hearts of women
FINALLY...WHY IS IT THAT LIFE IS SO COMPLICATED...
October 31 Reflecting on a year that has come and gone...Part 1[[ mood :: procrastinating... ]]
[[ song playing in my mind at the moment :: bad habits - destiny's child ]]
As i sit here at my study desk, procrastinating to do my Chinese, I start to wonder about what has happened this year so far. The official uni learning year is out...and there's around 2 months left before the year has ended, there's bound to be some stuff that has changed. Coz this blog might take a while..i'll do them in parts.
Friends
I've managed to keep the same close group of friends. Not too sure when the group was formed...but the people I hang out with have seemed to be consistent. I've managed to make some new uni friends in Chinese...and hopefully they'll prosper later on to become another close group of friends I socialise with. Here and there...I have managed to meet new people...with thanks to my current friends. There's also been the instance where I have managed to get back in contact with some friends who I haven't seen/spoken to since my primary school days (that's you Julie! lol). Regardless of these factors..there have been friends that I have lost contact with. Luckily enough though, there hasn't been any more dramas in this area of my life this year...and that's one thing I'm proud about. I guess it really shows who are the friends that I will be hanging with in my future...or even for my life time.
* My home girls *
Kitty - Gurkie...we may not talk as much as we used to...but regardless of that...i still consider you to be one of my closest friends. You have been there for me through thick and thin and have stood by me whenever I felt weak. Our own lifestyles are becoming more and more hectic, making me cherish our friendship more and more. I wish I could hang out with you more often...but I suppose other issues prioritise for now. You are the gurl who I can depend on to have a mature serious moment with or to have a wild time [you know what i mean *wink wink*]...either way...always gonna be down for ya gurkie. Luv ya *mwahz*
Angie - Out of everyone in our group [apart from Dave lol]...you're the one I see most often, thanks to us going to the same uni. You're a gurl who I can always depend on to have a good random chat with...or to share a good heart to heart...or even a good bitching session. You probably know the most about me out of our friends...and the friendship that we have shared from the very beginning is a friendship that isn't easy to find. I thank for always being there to stand by my side...or to give me an opinion that isn't biased...friends til the end my dear *huggles*
Jeann - My lil baby girl...well actually not my baby girl...you're now a gurl=p. I have managed to see you grow up so much in the past year. You've become more independent, more motivated and more determined to reach your goals. Although you're younger than me....you really do inspire me to work harder to achieve my own goals. It's always a joy to share a good random/sisterly chat with you...since it's a privledge that we don't get to do much. Keep staying strong..and you will get what you want. friends for life *huggies*
* Stay tuned for part 2..with the 2nd half of my home girls =] *
Ok...i've become lazy...will blog more later =]
CC
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